"Like the title suggests." Do you mean your name "wangster"? Does that mean that you've only gotten off by giving yourself hand jobs? Hey, there's nothing wrong with that. Jacking off is not sick or perverted, but is a healthy and wholesome thing to do. Do it and enjoy it.

But if you want to take things up a notch and shoot your load in someone's mouth, then put yourself out there. There are a lot of cocksuckers who'd be happy to give you a no-strings-attached blow job. I sure would.