I consider "gay" to be an emotional state where someone is romantically attracted to someone of the same sex. I'm not romantically involved, but I like the look, feel, taste of male cock. There's no faking; when a guy cums, you know it. I started like most of us, online, stroking with fellow cock strokers on cam while watching porn. I enjoyed the look of a cock when it shot and found myself watching them more than the porn vids.

I sucked my first cock in the aisle of an adult book store in Las Vegas. It was pretty easy to "advertise" my willingness to play. All booths had a window (Thanks a lot Jan Jones) so all I had to do was channel surf and when someone would come by the window and stop to see what's inside I could stop on a gay channel and if we both looked interested in taking it further I'd quietly flip the lock on the door. It took me a while to do this, so most of the time I'd quickly switch to a straight channel and they'd move on.

One time, an older, grey haired gentleman came by wearing a polo shirt and baggy cargo shorts. I could tell there was nothing underneath but a hard cock. When he caught my eye, he reached down and pulled his cock out and stroked it for me. I opened my door and figured "why not?" and reached over and took his cock in my hand. It was the first one besides my own that I'd ever touched.

It was clean and fresh, about 6" or so, hard and straight and I decided right there that I'd already gone this far, I might as well finish the job so I knelt down and while he stood in the hallway I took his cock in my mouth and started sucking. It was much less disgusting than I used to imagine and I really enjoyed fondling his balls as I sucked.

It didn't take long before I could feel some tensing in his cock and balls, and as he came in my mouth, I loved the feeling of it throbbing as I held his balls in my hand.

He nodded "thanks" and quietly slipped away, and so did I, imagining everyone in the store was looking at me and what I did. Eventually, after a few more trips I got over the guilt and realized nobody cared, and besides most of them were there for the same reason anyway and probably felt as scared as I did.

I've made a few friends since then that I can suck without any drama, and I've enjoyed every one of them. Am I emotionally attached? No. Gay? No. I just know it feels good when I have my own cock sucked and I cum in an appreciative mouth, and I enjoy giving that feeling to others.