I used to be more feminine as a kid. I remember really liking the color pink but feeling embarrassed about it. I remember having mood rings, necklaces, fanta flavored lip balm even silly bandz. Those are those bracelets that used to be popular. I even had a plushie collection. But eventually I tried to avoid my feminine nature and soon all of it was gone. I was relatively happy back then but ever since then I was mostly angry and desperately trying to be masculine

It made me become more toxic and behind that I was never happy. I was sad, angry and depressed. Sometimes I was scared. But ever since accepting that feminine side of me. All of that has gone and I feel happy again for the first time. In about 10 years