I just want to share with you lovely people. What I am thinking and feeling right now. Possibly 10 days away from going on hrt if I'm lucky. Otherwise just a bit longer. I am so incredibly excited. Finally I won't have to hide my emotions or how I feel. Won't have to feel bad about feeling feminine or how I never felt like a real man. I can finally be myself and be a trans woman. I can finally let myself be feminine. It's wonderful but I will need to get rid of my body hair etc. I'll do that within the next three months before I get feminine from hrt.

Anyway here's what I'm feeling. So blessed it's simple things I'll be able to do. Wear cute looking socks. Let myself actually like the color pink. Before I saw it as taboo and just focused on my other favorite color light blue. So buying a pink xbox controller and pink headset perhaps with the cat ears. Seems like a must. I'll buy soft toys or plushies like I used to when I was even 12. So perhaps I was more girly back then than I seem to recall. I can't remember a lot.

I'll wear make up, wigs since I can't grow long hair. I'll even paint my nails. Or wear a skirt or dress. I'll probably go all out. Even buy a pink or blue phone. It'll be fun to finally live the life I wish I could've in the past. But hey this is the rest of my life we're talking about.

There is so much more I want to say but this post is too long already. So I'll go more on about my personality in a second post later.