I am a 48-year-old bi man. For over 40 years I was totally straight and never even curious. In 2015 my wife and I divorced and that started me on a totally unexpected journey.

After the divorce I looked at a lot of porn every day. I found myself turned on by watching girls give blow jobs. Over time I found myself looking as much at the cock as the girl. I started looking at cock porn after that, especially cock worshipping porn. Slowly, over time I developed a deep appreciation for the male member. The image of an erect penis always made me hard and I loved watching close up video of a woman servicing a man's cock.

Then I started to get curious cravings.

I found myself wanting to suck a cock.

While masturbating daily, I ate my own cum regularly and loved it. I found myself depriving myself of orgasms so I could build up more cum so the load I ate would be bigger. Cum never disgusted me from this moment on. I absolutely craved my own cum and found myself eagerly slurping up my own pre-cum in marathon edging sessions.

By this time I wanted a cock in my mouth to see what it felt like but try as I might, I couldn't suck my own cock. I started looking at gay hook-up sites like Squirt.

I joined a few and looked around for months, never getting up the nerve to actually meet anyone. But the craving got to be too much. One Saturday I was bored and horny so on a whim I answered a guy's ad and we arranged to meet at a motel 10 minutes from my apartment.

I got there early and was extremely nervous. I almost considered not answering the door.

But I did answer the door.

He came in and we didn't say a word. He just pulled his shorts down and I kneeled in front of him and took his cock immediately in my mouth. I was in heaven. It grew hard in my mouth and I was so turned on, like nothing I had ever done.

When it came time for him to cum, he pulled out and squirted all over my face. Then he left.

I got in touch with him a week later and told him I wanted to swallow his cum. I went to his office after hours that night and blew him again, this time swallowing his load. It was pure ecstasy. I felt so horny and dirty and slutty and was so glad to feel that way.

I have been hooked ever since. I have lost count of how many cocks I have sucked since then. Maybe 40?

One time in a hotel room I got four guys to come and I sucked them all off at once. Another time I went to an orgy party and sucked seven cocks.

I simply can't get enough cock and cum. Cocks are the sexiest thing on earth to me and I love everything about cum: the scent, the temperature, the texture, and the taste. I absolutely crave it. I would drink quarts of it with every meal if I could...