i don't know how to say it, except to come right out and lay it on the line. I'm not gay - attracted to men in a romantic way, but I've learned to accept that I'm really interested in cocks....How they look, how they feel in my hand, and how excited I feel about the prospect of enjoying them orally. I haven't done it very often....Probably have sucked five guys with varying degrees of success, loved the taste of cum when I had the chance, and have really enjoyed the feeling of a strange cock in my hand when I had the opportunity. I've masturbated countless times thinking about all three, and know that I'd do those things again if the opportunity presented itself. At the same time, I know that I'm undoubtedly heterosexual, and fantasize about women. I love licking cunts and more recently find myself fantasizing about how much they'd like having their asses licked. There probably isn't much I wouldn't do in any scenario if I was horny enough. I think I'd lick either a guy or a girl's rosebud while they were fucking if I knew I'd have the chance to lick up a load of cum after the climax. I've never been able to express it here, but I'm laying it all out. I fantasize about having either a guy or a girl piss in my mouth if it's followed by a squirt or a load of cum. I sometimes fantasize about teasing both of them before they fuck, watching them do it, probably while I stroked my cock, and then using my tongue after they're done. I also know I'd enjoy having a guy watch while I licked her cunt and ass before they fucked, and having her watch while I revved him him up to fuck her, and then just going with whatever happened. I'd lick either of their asses while they fucked, or sit passively and watch until they were done. I've enjoyed having a stroke session with another guy one-on-one or fisting my cock with a girl and mutually masturbating while we talked about it before she fucked someone else. In either situation, I love to hear the wet sounds of them masturbating knowing that they'll be soon fucking someone and I'll get to put my mouth on them afterwards. I love jerking with them one on one, hearing the wet slushy sound of cunt juices or precum on a cock, and knowing that they're watching me satisfying myself. I want whatever happens anywhere along the way, as long as it's oral. I don't fantasize very often about being penetrated. When I do, It's more about having someone finger my prostate and bring me to a point where I cream, but I'm a lot more turned on by oral.....It's somehow cleaner and sexier. I'm not sure I want to be dominated, but occasionally I find myself turned on by the idea of an aggressive pretty girl forcing me to do whatever she wanted, whether I want to or not. I have to be pretty fucked up or drunk, but I've also found myself turned onto the idea of being at the mercy of a group of guys jerking themselves off onto my face or into my mouth....the whole bukakke thing. I find a common fantasy is to be forced by a group of women to expose myself, or humiliate myself and do anything they can dream up. I'd like to meet someone or a group of someones who would make me push my boundaries and do something I never thought I could. You know the general area I live in....You could insist that I make myself available for what you want....I might need some drinks or some drugs in me, but you know there's a point where you could get me to do w