Being gay can be so difficult sometimes but getting old is even harder. I am almost 38 and I look like a **** still. I am still carded for cigs. The problem with that is I realize that I have a problem. I always wanted kids and if I knew someone was messing with minors I'd kill them but the problem is I find guys attractive that I shouldnt. My nephew brought his friend to the house to hangout this week and when I got up to use the bathroom (which doesn't lock) I walked in on my nephews friend who had apparently just took a shower and was getting ready to get dressed for bed. I felt so bad and I just shut the door real quick and said sorry as I ran out. We'll I have felt like a freak because I can't get the image of him out my head. This dude looks like he is 20 to me but he's only 14 or he just turned 15. He is almost 6 feet tall and he had a dick that was every bi ft of 5 inches and that's limp. He was cut like a statue and just a good looking guy. Now I would never even think of crossing that line even if he begged me too but that doesn't change the fact that I woke up with a hard disk after having a dream about seeing him naked. Someone help me. What's wrong with me?? |
I would just join in the fun xx
And the matter has nothing to do with gay or straight, either.
This dynamic occurs in every family. Obviously there are no scientific statistics on it, but if we could know the truth, I'm sure it is the rare father that not has not 'shamefully and secretly' fantasized about his daughter as she becomes a woman.. or the same thing about a mother when she notices her son is suddenly growing pit hair, looking beefy in a T-shirt or she finds a wet sock by his bed. ... And just add to this that we are all to some extent also attracted to the same sex, so add that to the family mix, too! Don't you think that all this sexual tension is ONE of the reasons why families have so many fights, hurt feeling, slammed doors when puberty hits the home?
It is refreshing to read, and wonderful for all of us that we have found this wonderful place to air the same fears that generations since time began have had to deal with in secret and kneel quietly with a Bible to ask God to give them courage to resist the temptation of the flesh. Welcome to the world of human weaknesses, southsidestud.
You are clearly a fine and gentle soul and the world is better for your being here!
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